Capital Creek Sept 05 134

Capital Creek Sept 05 134
Originally uploaded by tommypboy.

i think i'll remember this photo not for its composition, which i really like, but for the possibility that it was shot on the last outdoor experience i had with my father and mother where we were all at peace with each other. since his double knee replacement in march 05, he has been a changed man. at first euphoric and fun and full of vigor and great ideas. however, of late, its all gone cockeyed. something isn't right and his mental state is deteriorating at an alarming rate. sometimes he knows it, usually he doesn't. my poor mother, the stress of potentially losing her life partner is taking its toll.

anyway, this is about him about how i see him in this shot. he is in his element, happy to be outdoors, enjoying his idyllic life, ever the optimist. i want to remember him this way, regardless of what we learn this week. he has been a wonderful father, supportive in his own way, he has done the best that he can. he's not perfect, they are not perfect, but they've always been there for me. if this is a goodbye, i will miss him immensely and rue the fact that i didn't do more with him when i had the oppty. sad day for me.